A Sadness Runs Through Her...

It actually happened.

I moved :(

I never thought it would really happen to be honest...

And it happened at such a crap time, l have to miss the fashion show at school which I wanted to be in and I met a nice guy who I might never see again :(

I’m ignoring my parents and my dad is getting pissed off- he expected me to run up to him and hug and kiss him when he came to pick me up. Why would I do that when he knows how much I didn’t want to move? I feel a bit guilty for ignoring my mum though; she’s making such an effort to make me happy. She keeps bringing up food for me, which I’m not going to eat- I don’t feel hungry at all which is weird for me :( And she keeps bringing me up tea.

I feel like a hospital patient.

I’m in this strange room, which really isn’t anything like my room! Its a yellowy-white colour (Which can hardly be called a colour!), it has a beige carpet and then Theresa built in wardrobe. I love bright colours.. I just feel drained in this room :( I’m writing this at 8:30am, it’s really bright and I’m in new pyjamas which my mum bought. They’re not my clothes and this is not my room! :( But I’m also wearing Craig’s scarf, it smells like Craig and I miss him :(

But if you’re reading this don’t get all depressed for me lol. I’ll still talk to you all on msn- I’ll become a computer nerd I promise, kay?

Urgh, just sat here listening to depressing music and going through the folder which my twins and Tanya made for me, I really love it. It’s so pretty and It must have taken them ages! Thanks so much guys, it’s made me feel a lot better x

It smells really funny here! I want my old smell back! And I want to cry but I spent hours crying last night. I cried LOADS and got myself worked up and nearly puked because I cried so much. Then I got really tired from crying too much so I fell asleep :(

I’d put pictures of my house up, but my phone just died. So sorry if anyone’s texted me this morning- I can’t find my charger to charge my phone. Urgh I hate this smell. My mum’s put stuff away in my room, she’s bought me new perfume, hairspray stuff (which smells good), new clothes, new pyjamas, and she’s put away some of my old clothes. I just looked in my draw and Sabina’s bra is there :( Sorry, Sabina. I’ll send it back asap okay? Love you x

Not much else to write about really. Other then the fact that Gracie’s changed, she’s smarter now so she knows a lot more words. She’s all over me this morning and so is Darcy. I actually hate this room/city/house/place! I want my old house back!!

Most depressing blog ever much? Sorry to those who have the displeasure of reading this.. hehe.

Well, that’ll be all for now. But I’ll probably do another post later because I’m so bloody bored here! I’d post my new phone number but I’m scared of stalkers.. lol. If anyone wants me to send them a letter leave your address in a comment on this post. But If you’re also scared of stalkers then you can email your address at kickassbabe2000@hotmail.com

Love you all x