I love gummy bears :)

I love gummy bears!
So should you!

I have too much free time lol.

The Truth :)

Religion sucks.
Don't be brainwashed like all the other sad catholics/christians out there :)
It's wrong to dedicate most of your life to worshiping a God who says if you don't follow 12 rules, you'll go to hell :)
Kthxbai.

The Confession.

Well, the reason I'm such a crabby bitch right now is because I just got a call from my cousin Megan (who was supposed to come over from Manchester to stay a while) she's ditching me to go to her friends 17th birthday party. Wow, she hasn't seen her cousin in about a year and she'd rather go see her best friend who she sees everyday. You can tell I feel really loved right now.
But the thing is. I have nothing to feel angry at, I was going to do the same to her. It's my best friend Tanyas birthday piss up on saturday..and I was going to ditch Megan to go there. But to be fair, its only about a day or 2 tops. Yet, with Megan I won't get to see her for ages usually, luckily this time she can come down again because her mums getting my uncle a dog. But unluckily, that's in the easter holidays. I have to spend the whole of my Easter Holiday babysitting her rather than being with my friends. I don't mean she's not my friend or anything, 'cause she is. It's just that she doesn't know my friends so it would be rude to hang out with them with her.

I think about my friends too much :/

Thank you for the venom.

If any ones alive out there, I want you to know that life sucks. Sure, I could go on about my life when there are plenty of African children starving to death as you read this, but I won't. All I'll say is life sucks and no matter what you do someones gonna screw you over and make you feel rejected, lonely and forgotten. What is life for anyway? To make children apparently and to keep populating the earth...what's the point in that? It's just an everlasting boring cycle of life. Yep, its official.
Life sucks.
My friends are my life, why should I abandon them and go live in another stupid country? Why? So I can suffer instead of my dad that works away during the week. Well you know what? I like that he works away during the week. Its much more peaceful and no one gets shouted at or upset. He makes my mums life hell, and he constantly yells at me for not spending enough time with him...why would I when he acts like such a dick? Fucking Australia. I will never fit in there or like it. Even if I do, I'll force myself not to. I won't abandon my friends.

The Used <3

Is it just me, or has the new album by The Used just suddenly appeared? I didn't know they made a new album untill yesterday! I downloaded it and its quite good, I do miss poor Bertys screaming though Shame about his throat, but still it's a good album.
It's called Shallow Believer, check it out :) My favourite song on it is Sun Comes Up. Anyways school in 5 minutes that's all for now. Oh, except my cousin is coming on Thursday :) She's called Megan, she's like a sister to me. My grandma is also coming, fingers crossed for money :P

Listening to:
Slit your own throat- The Used

Thinking of:
Moving house :( /span>
School
Friends
The Used
Megan+Grandma

Time:
08:25

The Venting :O

Ok im getting really pissed off with all the fucking emo and homosexual haters. Although i am not homosexual and dont really count myself as 'emo' but i guess i am one.. (what is emo anyway?!), i still think its wrong that people are bullied because they are different. Anyone who hates anyone because they are different, are pathetic and need to piss off.

Venting about emo haters....Ok so, everyone thinks that emo's only slit their wrists and cry..wtf not all emo's do that and when they do its not because they want to feel sorry for themselves and hurt themselves for attention...its because they've been hurt in someway etc. And when people bully them because of that, it doesnt help. You wouldnt make fun of and upset your friend when they're feeling low...so why do it to emo's? In conclusion i would like to say emo's are people...they rock and are good people (: ((I have never come across an emo who is mean (: )). You should be proud to be who you are! If you dont like that someone is different, then fuck you and i dont really care (:

Venting about homosexual haters....Oooh where to begin..ah i know. Christianity, apparently you cant be different AND believe in god.. lame much? If god can forgive sins and love you for who you are..then doesnt that inclue homosexuals? Just because in the bible it says stuff about men marrying women doesnt mean that god would disapprove of people being homosexual. Its really quite pathetic that people say that you cant be a true christian AND be gay. People like that need to be shot (: I support homosexuals and if you've got a bad oppinion about them..keep it to yourself. No one cares that you think its gross or wrong. How can boys say they like it when girls kiss..yet think its disgusting to be gay?! There is nothing wrong with being homosexual.

All mean comments are welcome cause I really dont give a fuck (:

A Madeline McCann Lecture :)

This seems mean and it probably is but I don't care, I'm just really annoyed with the whole Madeline McCann thing. Ok so the parents were stupid enough to leave Madeline alone in a hotel room in a different country so they could have a meal together. And then she got kidnapped, well big suprise there, they should never have left Madeline alone! And now rich people and paying millions to get her home! Why? Because she has 'special' eyes. So fucking what I'm sure Jessica and Holly (The 2 girls that got kidnapped quite a long time ago) had many special features too, but did people pay millions to get them back? No, they didn't. I guess they weren't special enough, that or their parents weren't stupid enough. And it also annoys me that Madeline's parents have automaticly become famous because their daughter was kidnapped! You see them in newspapers, in magazines and on the news all the time with their personal life, like how they might split up. Yeah, cause that'll really help Madeline if shes found What also annoys me is that people are paying millions of pounds when the parents were so careless, why didn't anyone care so much about all the other people when they went missing? It's really not fair. And like I said before, I know this is mean but it had to be said and I mean every word. It serves Gerry and Kate McCann right for being so careless and maybe this will teach them in future not to leave their kids alone.

Some Poems :)

Just some poems I have made throughout the years.
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I look outside the window, and see the stars above,
I think of that one special person, the one I truly love.
I love the way he smiles, the way he looks at me,
When he’s around the sun shines just right, he’s the only one I see.
When we’re apart I feel such pain. I feel so helpless too.
I never want to leave him, but in the end I do.
I know that this is love, I know that this is true,
We’ll last through all the hard times, and keep on shining through.
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I thought you’d always love me, I thought you’d never go,
I didn’t know you were so cruel to make me feel so low.
I hear our song on the radio; it still brings back a tear,
The thought of you ever leaving me, brought me so much fear.
But now I have to move on, to forget about you forever,
I know that you’ll never love me, and we’ll never be together.
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They called her such names, all because of her size,
Hid the hurt with a smile, weaving a web of lies.
Looking in the mirror, imagining someone she was not,
She’d never be happy with the body she got.
Smiling to herself, watching blood go down the drain,
No one can ever hurt her, not now, not ever again.
They all could of saved her, if they’d only let her be,
But now at least she’s happy, her tortured soul free.
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(My best I would say, I wrote it for an internet safety form assembly)
From a smile to a blush in just a while,
From email address, to numbers to dial.
Closer and closer we soon became,
You said you loved me, I felt the same.
In a matter of time, you wanted to meet,
To be together, our love so sweet.
I didn’t think you’d cause me any harm,
How wrong was I, to fall for your charm.
Creepy and dark pacing the alleyway,
10 minutes late to my dismay.
A tap on the shoulder, a wrinkled smirk,
My long lost prince; a perverted old jerk.
A few minutes later and all was done,
Left cold and alone with my skirt undone.
My innocence gone, my heart torn in two,
It seemed like a nightmare, but I knew it was true.

KISS ME! <3

Kiss me! :D Tis a song by New Found Glory I was singing a lot today :) Urgh school was crap though. Me and my friend Tanya pretended we were going out like a week ago and people have only found out today. Okay so we've kissed but it doesn't mean we're lesbians...does it? O_o Well I am defiantly sure I am straight :) Even if I do like kissing girls xD People were freaking out about my msn display picture...want to see?

Okay. So it does look lesbian. But, who cares? And who cares what people think of me? They've got no right to judge me, they don't know me. To happier topics...
I got a letter today :D Don't you just love getting post? To be able to open up something that is only adressed to you? Well it makes me feel so grown up ^.^ Hehe. Anyways, it was a letter about an 18th Anniversary of Young writers. I've only ever had one of my poems in a book before, and in my opinion, it wasn't even good. I hope to get more or my poems in books that are actualy good :)

To the topic of boys! Theres this guy called Sam in my school, you may not know this but I have extremely bad taste in boys. I always go for the nerdy, stupid, weird boys. Call it my instict but I like a challenge ;) Anyway, I liked Sam for ages and he just kept leading me on. He'd talk to me and kiss me one day, then ignore me the other. I'm not even joking thats what he did. I got so pissed off I just said fuck it. I didn't talk to him and avoided him. I moved on :) He didn't :/ He follows me sometimes and he really likes me apparently, well, It's too late now :) He did the most stupidest thing today, do you know when boys use stupid slang to impress you? Well, he did that! He goes 'Hey babe' and slaps my arse! Then he makes me give him a hug! I'm like I don't want to hug you after you've done that! :O I am officially mentally scarred and more over him then ever! He also followed me a lot today :/ I kept running away from him. I kinda feel bad, but it's his fault. I now realise what a mug he is and I'm glad I took my friends advie and moved on :)
Is there any boys in this world that are hot AND nice? If there ARE any out there please tell me :)

A song for a day:
Kiss me- New found Glory.
Listen to it :) It made me very happy, and it should make you happy too :)

Thoughts of the day:
Sam
Homework
Friends
KISS ME!
Sex
Blogging

Feeling:
Sleepy. (Aren't I always?)

Nothing much interesting today :/ I wish something exciting would happen.

Listening to:
Naked- Avril Lavigne.

12/3/08 Music: One-x by Three Days Grace

Well, new blog site and I get to start if off with a boring blog :) Great!
To be honest I'm just too tired to write and I've still got shit loads of homework. Urgh, please remind me why R.E was invented again? It seems they just want to brainwash you into worshipping a God who, In my opinion, doesn't exist O_o
Plus I have to sit next to this annoying guy who shall not be named. Oh my gosh he smells like a butcher shop! I'ts disgusting! He's trying to talk to me and I'm like urgh! But I don't do it to his face cause I'd feel too guilty. :) Looks like I have a heart after all. Right now it is 3 past 12 to be exact and I still haven't done my R.E homework. We watched a bit of the passion of christ in R.E and it was quite interesting, we weren't allowed to see the death scenes though because they were apparently, too horrific. But me, in my wild curiousity and interest, decided to watch it at home on youtube. BIG mistake. It was absolutely disgusting, for a moment I felt that i actualy believed in God and Jesus, then I realised it was just a film. So there goes my faith, guess I wont be healed after all Jesus. So thats all for tonight, boring? I know. But I promise to improve my writing...when I'm not so tired and busy. My next blog will probably be on Sunday. I'm busy the other days :S And if anyones actualy reading this hello and thanks for reading :)

Thoughts of today:
Being a doctor when I'm older....
Calories
System of A down
How much of a bitch my friend is (Well, sorta ex friend)
My friends birthday tomorow :O Shit I didn't get her a present

Feeling:
Worried.