Change :)

Changed my mind.

Heres my address:
7 Murray Close
Bishops cleeve,
Gloucestershire
GL52 8XE
United Kingdom

STALK MEH!

Move Along

When all you’ve got to keep is strong move along move along like I know you do, and even when your hope is gone move along move along just to make it through <3

Btw, because this site won’t let you do exclamation marks? This means an exclamation mark= (1)

Now it’s 1:11pm to be exact :) I’m shit bored and can’t stop thinking about Bexhill and the people in it :( I’ve seen a few people in this town and oh my gawd stuck up much? They’ve got their heads up their ass and speak really posh(1) I’m from Manchester... I don’t do posh(1) Like, wtf(1)

Tanya texted me which made me feel better so everyone should know that she rocks :)

Hmm well I need to remember a few things so I’m gonna put them here :) :
1) Unpack (Yes, even more unpacking)
2)Piss off parents e.g. smoke in front of them, get drunk, get lip pierced :)
3) Be nicer to Jake (Ever since I saw how Carolann and Hannah didn’t get on it made me feel guilty about being a bitch to Jake)
4)Do something creative rather than mope about
5) Keep ignoring parents
6) Write letters to people
7) Keep trying to call the twins(1) (Guys, pick up your phones for once <3)

Still can’t eat :( I couldn’t last night either. I actually turned down food.. like omg. Is that even possible for me? :O Ah well, at least I’ll lose weight.. best to think positive at these times I suppose.

I’ll try not to bore the shit out of you so I’ll stop writing for now. Much loveage x :/

A Sadness Runs Through Her...

It actually happened.

I moved :(

I never thought it would really happen to be honest...

And it happened at such a crap time, l have to miss the fashion show at school which I wanted to be in and I met a nice guy who I might never see again :(

I’m ignoring my parents and my dad is getting pissed off- he expected me to run up to him and hug and kiss him when he came to pick me up. Why would I do that when he knows how much I didn’t want to move? I feel a bit guilty for ignoring my mum though; she’s making such an effort to make me happy. She keeps bringing up food for me, which I’m not going to eat- I don’t feel hungry at all which is weird for me :( And she keeps bringing me up tea.

I feel like a hospital patient.

I’m in this strange room, which really isn’t anything like my room! Its a yellowy-white colour (Which can hardly be called a colour!), it has a beige carpet and then Theresa built in wardrobe. I love bright colours.. I just feel drained in this room :( I’m writing this at 8:30am, it’s really bright and I’m in new pyjamas which my mum bought. They’re not my clothes and this is not my room! :( But I’m also wearing Craig’s scarf, it smells like Craig and I miss him :(

But if you’re reading this don’t get all depressed for me lol. I’ll still talk to you all on msn- I’ll become a computer nerd I promise, kay?

Urgh, just sat here listening to depressing music and going through the folder which my twins and Tanya made for me, I really love it. It’s so pretty and It must have taken them ages! Thanks so much guys, it’s made me feel a lot better x

It smells really funny here! I want my old smell back! And I want to cry but I spent hours crying last night. I cried LOADS and got myself worked up and nearly puked because I cried so much. Then I got really tired from crying too much so I fell asleep :(

I’d put pictures of my house up, but my phone just died. So sorry if anyone’s texted me this morning- I can’t find my charger to charge my phone. Urgh I hate this smell. My mum’s put stuff away in my room, she’s bought me new perfume, hairspray stuff (which smells good), new clothes, new pyjamas, and she’s put away some of my old clothes. I just looked in my draw and Sabina’s bra is there :( Sorry, Sabina. I’ll send it back asap okay? Love you x

Not much else to write about really. Other then the fact that Gracie’s changed, she’s smarter now so she knows a lot more words. She’s all over me this morning and so is Darcy. I actually hate this room/city/house/place! I want my old house back!!

Most depressing blog ever much? Sorry to those who have the displeasure of reading this.. hehe.

Well, that’ll be all for now. But I’ll probably do another post later because I’m so bloody bored here! I’d post my new phone number but I’m scared of stalkers.. lol. If anyone wants me to send them a letter leave your address in a comment on this post. But If you’re also scared of stalkers then you can email your address at kickassbabe2000@hotmail.com

Love you all x

Dear Angel :)

Oh my god.
I'm doing the exercise diet (not sure if i added that to my list) and I just did 100 sit ups.
The main thing you need to know about that is GAWD I'm unfit!
Lmao.
At least I did them :P
I'm gonna try and do 500 sit ups a day..
Wish me luck I'm gonna need it!

Now, I shall talk about school and me moving, the boring crap that no one wants to read about :D
I don't think many people read this anyways lol..
Only Nikita and possibly Sabina?
Ah well.
It's because they have no life :D
Well anyways, I wan't to write all my dearest friends a letter before I go, oh gawd it's going to take ages..
But it'll be worth it.
I hope no one cries when I leave.. quite a few people have said they will :S
But I'm happy that I don't have any enemies before I leave, I'm also happy I'm friends with Finn again so if he's reading this (which I doubt he is), sorry for everything!

Now..
My list of people to whom I shall give letters to:
Hannah
Nikita
Sabina
Anthony (How could I ever forget the Malibu Lizzard? :P)
Manya!
Dan. O
Craig
Finn
Joshua/Gay Face/Faggot/Twat :) <3
Tom Morrissy! (Legend!!)
Judith
Nathan
Ailish
Shannon
Amber

Let me know If I forgot anyone..

And people.. please don't cry when I leave.. you know how pissed I get when I smudge my eyeliner :P

Die Romantic

Okay, So I've just finished watching Fatal Attraction.. and it's actualy good.
Remind me to act like Alex did when someone breaks my heart :)
But seriously, it teaches all the crappy guys out there NOT to fuck with women!
Cause we'll come stalk you and boil your bunny like Alex did :P
Lol.

And now I'm watching 'The Dark', and I've just noticed that Merrik from 'The Island' is in it :)
I watch a lot of movies... I have a lot of spare time :D
And is it just me or does every horror movie always have the same structure?
It starts, has a long boring start when it shows you the family or the people in it and their story, then something will make you think somethings about to happen... and you'll say 'Omg! I can't watch!' and you just assume something will happen.. but it wont. Then theres more talking, then someone gets eaten.
THE END.

How original these movies are :)
I've just realised.. 'gets eaten' LOL
Dirty xD

Unholy Confessions

I seem to start my posts with short sharp sentances... forgive me... I just had exams :P Couldn't help but notice.
Well this post is going to have some of my confessions..
Note the title, 'Unholy Confessions'. If you haven't noticed by now most of my post titles are song names/lyrics :)

So here they are:

1) I was the one who broke my dads laptop, not my brother. I accidently spilled fizzy drink all over it, then blamed it on my brother by saying he accidently squirted it with his water gun...

2) I do gossip a lot. I think everyone probably knows that by now.. and I promise I am trying to stop.

3) I found some mean notes about me at a friends house :/ And I didn't tell them I found them. I am kinda upset about it but I suppose I had it coming with all the gossiping.

4) I ate the holy bread communion thing at camp when I'm not supposed to :O Some girl went up and shared half with me 'cause I had never had it before.

5) I get a lot of my homework from the internet...

6) I like seeing my brother get shouted at by my dad..

7) I really don't want to be like my mum when I'm older :S She's shy, has no job, hardly ever sticks up for herself and always lets people push her around (Mostly me and my dad :S...)

8) I daydream way too much and wish it was real..

9) I always have to correct people when they typo on msn or in their msn names.. It annoys the hell out of me!

10) I wish I wasn't such a bitch to my friends all the time.. :(

11) I've shouted and had a go at someone for no reason then blamed it on PMS when I wasn't even on my period...

12) I REALLY wish people would stop thinking I'm so controlling... that or I wish I wasn't so controlling! I don't mean to be!

13) I'm not as upset as I should be about moving.. I was much more upset before.. I guess it just hasn't hit me that I'm moving yet :/

14) I think ______ has an alcohol problem and I didn't want her to makeout with every guy there at my piss up which is why I didn't want to invite her to my piss up....

15) I don't know what I feel for him anymore...

Well there was some, maybe I'll make another list in the future...
Or when I've moved so people can't kill me :P

Much lovage! x

Sleep

Me and Hannah tried Green tea with lemon today :D

It tasted like shit.
Maybe it's because I stewed it.. lol.
But anyway, I don't get how it's meant to make you lose weight...but I'm gonna keep drinking it anyways.

Short blog.
Going to bed in like 5 minutes lol.

Tanya plucked my eyebrows today and now I have a headache :(
But I get pet rats soon so its okay :D

Exactly 7 days before I move now :(
Is gonna suck ass.

Tanyas ass.
:D

Boring blog.
Cba to type, I have another written out in my journal but I can't be bothered to type it up...
Ahh me and my laziness :)

I love Nikita and Tanya and Sabina :)
They're coolies.
And omg.
So many people are making blogs now!
I've like, inspired everyone.

That's all for now ;)
Worlds most interesting blog much?
I'm wild. Almost as wild as...

Breaking The Habit...

I've decided that I want to lose weight.
So.
I'm going to try a mixture of different diets, see which ones work, and then post the results on my blog :)
I'm going to have a lot of spare time during the summer holidays what with being alone so I'm gonna do a load of random crap lol.

The diets:
1) Diet pills
2) Special K
3) Slim Fast
4) Weight Watchers
5) Apple Diet
6) Herbal Tea Diet (Ew.)
7) Veggie Diet

Yeah...this is going to be fun lol.

I'll also try to do a lot of exercise :) And then hopefuly the weight will drop off. Not literally drop off.... that would be slightly confusing and scary....

:D

Wish me luck

All These Things I Hate...

Food and Fake Crying.

Food.

I hate food. It tastes so good yet makes you look so ugly. And isn't it typical that the gross food makes you look and feel better and the nice foods make you look and feel like crap. If there really is a God he's an asshole!
And it's so depressing what people will do to stay skinny/get skinny and eat junk food....
Throwing up, taking laxatives? Ew.
I was once one of those stupid girls who thought being skinny would solve everything, and yes. I wanted to be skinny so bad that I would throw up my food.
I'm not proud of it, but to be honest if I could go back in time and stop myself doing it, I wouldn't.
It helped me lose a lot of weight and gain a lot of confidence.
I just hate it when people who are already super skinny do it. I'm not saying anyone should do it though, it's quite traumatic actualy.
And tbh, I think I still am one of those stupid girls. When you're skinny you get whatever you want.. the guys, friends, popularity, nice clothes...
It's not fair!

Fake Crying.

I don't have much to say about people who fake cry to skive for emotions.
They should just know that their boring, attention seeking, waste of caring abouts :) And that was the nicer way of me putting it :)
If you wan't attention don't be boring and don't think you have to pretend to be upset to get someone to talk to you...
Pathetic much?

Your Heart Smothers Me And Now It's Hard To Breathe...

Here, in Media studies again and ignoring the same usual 'attempting to teach' crap from Mr Dobson. I swear he teaches us the same things every lesson. I guess he's just given up on us because he's retiring in like, a week. No Media GCSE for me then...

He just uses up most of the lesson arguing with people for pointless reasons and oh my gawwd. That bloody Evian bottle he likes to molest every lesson. He goes on about it EVERY single lesson- the only thing I've learnt from it is that it's spelt 'Naive' backwards! I can't take much more of this! I'm half happy that I'm leaving in a week and 4 days...mostly unhappy though.

At least I get to start my whole life over again...with black hair :P But anyways, back to Media Studies...

I think everyones scared to look up, because if you do all you'll get is a question which you can't answer and a very sarcastic look+comment.

Now I'll go on to more personal stuff....

Me and Josh aren't speaking to eachother right now... we got into ANOTHER argument. I don't even know what it was about! By the time school ends I'm pretty sure all will be well since all he wants to do is shove his tounge down my throat.. oh great. We have a physical relationship... could you even call this a relationship when all we do is fight and make out? It's seriously boring me but all the other times I've liked a guy they've either wanted someone else better then me, not liked me, dated them but the relationship never worked or they were too shy to ask me out...

I've come to the conclusion that guys suck and I should just be a lesbian! Not going to be... but should!

15 minutes left off the lesson and we're still talking about the stupid radio station we started talking about at the start of the lesson... How fun and interesting this lesson is...

Oh dear Charlotte looked up and she's clueless...don't blame her- Mr Dobson asks stupid and obvious questions... and now I smell fish? Wtf! Why do I smell fish? Lmao... just for the fun of it.. Charlotte close your legs!

Ah to be younger again...

Well this post certainly seemed to turn out as an essay, but I'm just so bloody bored!

10 minutes left, and I looked up d'oh! Why does he always ask me questions about the Southern parts of England? I thought it was bloody obvious that I'm northern lol.

5 minutes left, lets rave! No seriously, I'm wearing a bright yellow bracelet which sorta glows in the dark :) hehe.

Me+Anthony talked about love in science... he thinks I love Josh... I don't think I'm capable of loving someone who I have a very tiring and physical relationship with... but nice try Ant ;) Love sucks and I refuse to give in to feeling that crappy emotion which always screws you over!

CLASS OVER!

Making Light Of These Dark Days...

Well,

Only a week and 5 days left 'till I move...

Wow I'm gonna miss Bexhill.

Gonna have a massive leaving piss up..is gonna be awesome :D I supose that's something to look forward to before I go at least...that and I get pet rats when I move! :)

Imagine how fucked up my liver is/is going to be when I'm older..

What a fun time in hospital I'm going to have :D

Not much to talk about really, apart from the fact that everytime me and Josh seem to makeout we ALWAYS get interrupted... yeah, it is quite annoying.

Snaps to you if you can read this: I'm bored and thinking about that stupid person who will never like me. It's not that I like him, but the more he rejects me the more it makes me think 'Is he doing this because he likes me?' of course that won't be the case because I always seem to get the wrong idea...

Of course you can't read it...fool.

The font is 'Webdings' if that helps :) But would you really go to the trouble of translating it to see what I'm thinking about right now? If you had no life maybe. Or maybe you could go buy one like I'm supposed to be doing :)

Casual sex anyone? Yes, No, Maybe so?

KTHXBAI!

You Talk A Good Game

If theres one goal thats impossible to reach in this world, its being a good friend.
However much you debate it, theres no way you can be a good friend.
Imagine you have a friend who is saying bad things about another friend but asks you not to tell them...
What do you do?
Do you be a good friend to the bitching one and not tell the other friend, but while doing that you're also being a bad friend to the one being bitched about....
Or you could tell the other friend that the friend has bitched about them, but then you're also being a bad friend there too....
So basically.. you're screwed.
How do you talk yourself out of this situation?
You could defend the friend being bitched about...but lets face it, how many of us would actualy do that?
And you're still being a bad friend there...
Seems impossible doesn't it?

Lies For The Liars

Liars?

Hate them.

I think everyone does actually.

But, does it ever occur to anyone that you’re being a hypocrite when you bad mouth liars.

Everyone’s lied at least once in their lifetime, doesn’t matter how small the lie, you’ve lied.

Like lying to make someone feel better.

Ever tell your friend she doesn’t look fat in a dress when she actually does? Or if someone asks if they think a certain boy likes them or if someone lies about not having a party so you won’t come.

Then that friend can go somewhere wearing that dress and get called fat, not only will she hate you for lying, but she also may turn bulimic or something...

Or, if that person now thinks that boy likes them, so she asks him out. He laughs in her face and says no. She could become depressed and hate you....

And finally, the party. Well that friend can find out the party did happen and cause an argument. Result? Friendship ruined.

So, no matter how much you think lying is a good idea at the time...remember it has consequences.

I’m writing this because my friend just lied to me.

One of the 3 examples I just gave you, one of them is me.

Can you guess?