Can't take my life tonniiight! Cause I have no right to die, I don't wanna!!!!!

RARGH!!
New word! WOOT
I AM HYPER.
SO I AM WRITING A LIST OF SHIT THAT IM THINKING OF THAT I CANT BE BOTHERED TO PUT INTO PARAGRAPHS!

I love Avenged Sevenfold right now!! Brompton cocktail is an amazzing song and video! Check it out.. though it is a little scary.. theres drugs, sex, murder.. its fuckin epic!

VOTE OBAMA. McCain sucks!.. my dick.

BAYBEH! LOVE REALLY HURTS WITHOUT YHUU! That song is fawkin epic too! It's called Love really hurts without you- Billy Ocean.

I miss my friends :O

Why do some guys have to be so hot that they're just a cruel reminder that you'll never have a chance with them? WHYY?!

Oh my gawd. Im so horny LOL. I NEED ACTION. Any takers? You can be ugly!.. Or retarded!.. Or look like HARRY for all I care! Actualy no. I take that back. Harrys a facking muugins mate xD

I KISSED A GIRL AND I LIKED IT! Tanya ;) .. Sabina :D .. Nikita :O (Horny bitch! She so wanted it.. and she still wants it. JUST ADMIT YOU WANT ME GOD DAMN IT AND WE CAN GO OFF IN A BUSH AND HAVE FRANTIC SEX WHILE TANYA WATCHES!)

Twin action!

*Is putting my books in my bag ready to leave in Maths*
Maths teacher: Amy get them out!
Amy: Excuse me? :O

PEOPLE OF THE.. ST RICHARDS SCHOOL.. Don't hate Chess! She's sexy.

I ate chillis in Food tech today, they burnt my tounge :o Only me and Jack were brave enough to eat them

NEVER WANTED TO DANCE WITH NOBODY BUT CHOO.

Yeah most of this blog is me screaming out random lyrics lawlll.

I CRY ALOT LATELY CAUSE IM SAD.AND EMO.AND GOTH APPARENTLY.AND DEPRESSED.LETS ALL FEEL SORRY FOR ME!!
CAUSE YOU'LL NEVER SEE ME AGAIIIIN! SO NOW WHOS GONNA CRY FOR U? YOU'LL NEVER SEE ME AGAIIIIN! NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO! (Tis a song don't be offended! ;) )

So. um. How is everyone today? Or tomorow? Who knows if we'll even be here tomorow? A big purple cloud could come at anytime and eat us all and then spit us all out into the sea and then a big marshmallow could fall in the sea and suck up all the water and then all the fish would die but we'd be like woot! We're living! And then all the hippies and animal obsessive loving people would be like nuuu! And go hang themselves with one of them plastic ring can holders that environmentalists are always complaining about :O

Wowza. Suddenly, the world seems more interesting!
I am so good at these crappy excellent little stupid amazing theories!

On that note, I'd like to say that I want to bang Tanya. Even though I already have.

KTHXBAI

Love you all <3
Cept McCain. GDIAF* YOU FUCKIN ASSHAT!

Note:
*GDIAF: Go die in a fire.
*YHUU: The chavvy crappy totally pointless way of saying you in text type

Fawkin chavs. Ruining the planet with their smelly Burbery cologne/perfume.

Oh yeah, Bye.

Such a Lonely day should be banned

I spent like, the whole day on World Of Warcraft today.. I am so lame.

And Jake had his retarded 'friends' over, the first one (Adam) was okay after a bit but the other one which I shall call shit face since I can't remember his name and he is a shit face, was a total, um ... shit face. Yeah, that sums him up.

My dad made us go for a walk in the country side too O_O I thought it would suck but I got to see some sheep so it went okay! :D

I tried to pet the sheep.. but they ran away and wouldn't let me pet them.. so I got angry and chased them :(

Stupid sheep.. well.. I didn't want to pet them anyway! They probably have fleas.. and rabies.. and AIDS and all that other shizz.

But they were so fluffy! :(

And and.. I watched 'An American Haunting' tonight. Oh my gawd, any movie like 'The Exorcist' scares the shit outta me! And my dad thought it would be funny afterwards to hide behind the curtains when I went out the room and jump out when I had gone back in the room and sat down and got comfy.. ruining my perfectly comfy state :(!

Needless to say, I screamed like a little girl and was not amused.

I thought I'd let you know that I have a nipple errection right now and it's really bugging me.. it kinda hurts :O It's the strangest nipple errection I have ever had :O

I went a day without wearing makeup today xD I feel proud!

I got some acne cream from the doctors too so I can get rid of my spots.. at bloody last too!

This was me today.. in the car.. cause I was bored xD

((No edits this time xP))

Boys and Girls ¬¬

Well there seems to be a lot of love lately!
Not saying that's a bad thing.. I'm just saying its pretty annoying to see a happy couple smiling and making out everytime you turn around O_O
And I wonder why I feel lonely?

There also seems to be a lot of arguments at my new school lately.. about boys.
Fancying boys, your best mate flirting with the boy you like cause she can, people getting hurt by boys, people getting dumped by boys..
You know what?
Love isn't the problem.. boys are!

But yeah.. like I heard in some song lyric or something.. once you know what love is you never want to let it go..
Which I think is quite sweet :) Though depressing at the same time.
And I've just realised that wasn't a lyric.. it was from Jacks msn name lol..
My bad.

So anyways, my dad keeps talking a lot about letting me move back when I finish school.. and he's being serious this time..
He said him and my family are going to move to Italy, and he'll drop me off in Bexhill.
That makes me so happy :D
I think the fact that I've been totally miserable here, been threatened with councilling/been councelled for my depression, always use the fact that they made me move an argument and yeah..
I'm such a bad daughter :O
They say I only care about myself and that I'm shallow..
Well. I guess they're right then.

Well anyways my blog about boys are done.. for now!
I just feel like hitting random subjects at the moment.. so I might be writing a lot :)

Much love friends, family, known enemies, and unknown enemies..
I love you guys <3
(And to the other guys.. I will get revenge!)

>:)

Drive away (!)

Okay well, right now I'm really liking Pimp My Ride. Though one thing I don't understand is why the presenter always tries to be so.. young.

My dad pointed it out.. I was watching it and he came in and started slagging off presenters (You get used to it with my dad.. he's always rinsing the piss out of TV programmes lol.. he hates the crappy american ones like 'Everybody loves Raymond'.)

So anyways.. the presenters always doing stupid hand actions and saying stupid young words/phrases like 'babe', '..man (after every sentance)', 'DUDDDEEE', 'yo', 'Easy, easy!', 'Gangsta', 'Listen up!, 'Super slick'...

NEED I GO ON?!

And have you heard the way they talk?
Seriously bad actors duuuhudde.
Lawl, Now everytime I watch it all I think about is their bad acting, stupid ways of speaking, their sad attempts to be younger and prove that they're still cool... and they're STUPID BLOODY HAND ACTIONS WHICH THEY KEEP DOING.
These programmes are driving me insane lately.

Good show though, check it out ;)

The band strikes up and they're playing our song, dressed in black and we're singing along to the.. broken hearts parade!

Aha, I have Broken Hearts Parade by Good Charlotte in my head !
Ahhh it's been there for like, a week. My dad says that's the only thing in my head too :( lol Harsh maaann.

And I'm still ill!
Stupid cold!
Hehe, so far I've infected like.. 3 people!
I'm like a vampire! But without the cool blood sucking and such :(
I'd love to be a vampire! I find blood really cool :O It sounds weird but sometimes when I'm bored I prick my fingers and make them bleed then write with blood in a fountain pen.. it's awesome!

People get really freaked out! Teehee ^.^
I love being weird! :D

So anyway, theres like a 10% chance I may be moving back to Bexhill ^.^
I doubt it'll happen but I can keep pushing it!

I'm really into drawing lately, in TLC (Free period at school..) I draw things and then I have the staff come over and look at what I draw. I hate it when they come over and comment on it though :/ I hate it when people watch me when I draw! I drew an emo boy and one of the staff were like 'Ahh that's good. Is it you?' and I was like 'No! It's a boy! Are you saying I look like a boy? :O'. Hehe.

So anyways, heres some gossip/rumours:
1) Hannah gave Matt a handjob in History: False. Is not true :)
2) Louise was caught with her top up in the music room with Chris by 2 people :P
3) An on and off couple are back together.. again. Though they're keeping it a secret.
4) Finn and Charlotte fancy eachother.. when are they going to date? :O
5) Someones girlfriend (who've been together a long time now) cheated on her boyfriend.. AGAIN.. on holiday with someone :P It was only a kiss this time but cheating is cheating, right?

Well thats it for now.. not much I know but bear in mind I am living away ;)
Haha, I could be like a mini Perez Hilton!

I have no idea what I'm going to do with my hair lately.. should I dye it black again or leave it ginger? I am clueless!

That's all for now ;)

Voices of Violence :O

I know I haven't written in a while, to be blunt it's cause I'm a lazy cow. Kay? :P

Anyways!

People have been arguing a lot lately! :O Like seriously.. why is everyone arguing so much this month? Though, I can talk cause I've been arguing on the Neon bebo page a lot teehee.

I'm gonna call this month 'The Great Depression' cause it is xD Hehe

Though I still manage to smile so it cant be that bad huh?

Well at the moment I'm ill! So I'm off school.. ahh I feel so lazy :( Never thought I'd feel guilty for skipping school tbh : It feels strange.. I don't like it!

Hehe, look what I found on Explosm! (I love that site)

Oooh how I love label humour ^.^ (As long as its not mean.. to emo's :P)

LOL That reminds me. I got shouted at the other day! I was walking my dawg to tesco and I was wearing tartan pants and these chavs behind me shouted 'Why are you in your pjama's!'

I turned round and said 'Cause saying that makes you so cool..'

I hate Chavs!


Anime!

I've been watching more while I've been ill.. am currently watching Full Metal Alchemist.. It's okay.. but I prefer Elfen Lied and Air TV anyday :) Air TV made me cry :O It's so sad :(

Arghh I have the worst headache ever! I blame.. God? No. Because he doesn't exist :) If he did I would curse him for being such a shit head.

I'm watching Black Xmas tonight xD Wish me luck! I heard it's scary hehe..

Bored now.

Byee byee!

P.S Gracies singing 'I've got a lovely bunch of coconuts!'

Lmao That girls strangeee.

Must get it from her sister ;)

Such as it ends

Now that my rant is over.. for now.. I guess I should talk about something um, interesting.

:/

Breathings just a waste of time (8)
And that's true :/

But that's not very interesting is it?
No.

That's me being an emo twat.
This week is now going to be named 'The Great Depression'
Cause that's what it is. A fucking awful week of regret and depression.
But. I deserve it. So. I'll accept it.
I hate you.

But anyway..
Waffles:
'A waffle is a light batter cake cooked in a waffle iron patterned to give a distinctive and characteristic shape.'

Uhh, what's with the shape? It's so weird.. It has like.. loads of gaps.. what's with that? I mean, then they go and make things like 'A waffle iron'.
Huh? And.. how did they invent the waffle? Did they suddenly decide to make some sort of toast related snack and then were like 'Hey! Lets call it a waffle!'
People.. do enlighten me.

Well I think I'm gonna burn in hell...

Argh!
I hate myself!!!!!
I WISH I WAS DEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!
DIEEEEEEE U FAT SLAGGISH BITCH PEOPLE ARE RIGHT ABOUT YOU AND ALL YOU'RE CAPABLE OF DOING IS HURTING OTHER PEOPLE CAUSE YOU'RE THAT PATHETIC.
I HATE YOU!!!!

Cause I can't stop loving you, No I wont stop loving you.. Why should I?

I had a dream last night and it pissed me off!
I dreamt that I was dating someone I liked (Obvious who) and then I woke up and I was all confused. I was like, did that just happen? It was so strange. It took me 10 minutes to work out that it didn't happen lol.

But anyways.
Oscars in A&E :O!
I almost cried when I heard that, I'm so pathetic lol.
He's done something to his leg though so I guess its not that bad.
Get well soon Oscar :)

Hmm.
My uncles come down for the weekend, and today..
I'm getting rid of half my rats :(
I have to give them to pet shops! In total I'm only allowed 2!!!
2! How stingy.
I've already chosen though, I'm going to put Twitch and Tampon up for adoption (I know. I'm shallow I only like them when they're young and cute) and I've chosen 1 bluey black rat (Like my hair colour! :D) and 1 completely white rat.
I haven't decided what I'm going to name them yet, but I want the names to be funny :D

Eeeep.
:)

All that I've got.

Nathan wants me to write a happy blog about myself to stop sounding so fricken emo so um, I guess I could write a bit.
I'm feeling down again though so it's probably gonna turn out sounding emo.. lol.

I like to make people smile.
I like hugs.
I like how long my legs are.
I've been told my boobs are good (Y)
I like pretzels.

Yeah. Blog done.
:D

Haaaavee you heard the neeeewsss that you're dead?

That's right. 2 Deaths have happened recently which have really upset me. I was so close to them both and I loved them so much! I just wish they didn't have to go :(

Yup.

My iPod and my laptop BOTH died! I mean wtf!
My iPod got put in the washing machine O_o (Argh stupid parents, they should learn to check pockets!)
And my laptop.. uh well I always turn it off by holding down the off button.. damaging the hardrive.. D'OH.

And nooowww I shall talk about my last blog.. I'm sorry it was so emo lol. And I'm sorry if it upset anyone.. I almost cried when Ailish told me she'd read it and decided to change and apologise and such. Unwanted result much? lol. I didn't even think she'd read it to be honest :O I was in such a depressing mood and I blame Hannah for this!

She sent me this song on msn called Beautiful Freak by The Eels. And she told me it reminded her so much of me and how much she means to me! I cried lol. I was in such a crying mood last night.. oh and then later on It didn't get better.. I'll explain that in a minute though.

Heres the lyrcis to the song:
Youre such a beautiful freak
I wish there were more just like you
Youre not like all of the others
And that is why I love you
Beautiful freak, beautiful freak
That is why I love you
Beautiful freak, beautiful freak
Some people think you have a problem
But that problem lies only with them
Just cause you are not like the others
But that is why I love you
Beautiful freak, beautiful freak
Yeah that is why I love you
Beautiful freak, beautiful freak
Too good for this world
But I hope you will stay
And Ill be here to see that you dont fade away
Youre such a beautiful freak
I bet you are flying inside
Dart down and then go for cover
And know that i
I love you
Beautiful freak,
You know that i
I love you
Beautiful freak, beautiful freak

Such a sweet song (:
Ooh but anyways, heres what happened last night.

Well! There I was downstairs on the computer since my laptops broked (*cry*), smoking a cigarette when I heard noises from upstairs. Usually I would have payed no attention but I wasn't in the mood to risk it. I had a plate full of ash in front of me so I quickly scooped up the ash and hid it in a bowl next to me. I then stubbed out the cigarette quickly and put it in my pocket along with my backy and lighter. About 2 minutes later, BAM. My mum opened the door (quite loudly.. it scared the shit outta me.) She said:
'Amy you left the tap on in the kitchen and.. *sniffs* what's that smell?'
Me: Uhh what smell? I don't smell anything.
Mum: I smell smoke.. what have you been doing?
Me: Nothing. *Goes into the kitchen and peeks round to see that mum is looking around my desk for evidence
Mum: Amy. What's in this bowl..
Me: Wha? In what bowl?
Mum: This one
Me: Oh.. its.. insence.
Mum: Insence? It doesn't smell like insence..
Me: That's cause I lit a match to light it so it smells a bit weird.
Mum: Oh well.. we'll talk about this tomorow. Go to bed now.

Gawwwd that was a close break.
HA no offence but shes a little bit brown haired (not blonde Ailish :) ) if she seriously thought that was insence.
But oh well, at least she believed it :/

How ironic.

Um bored now and the Ball family are coming round to visit my mum so she has me running around the house, tidying up and cleaning to pretend we live in a house that is actualy clean.. HA. But seriously that smoking thing with my mum fucking scared me and I'm gonna quit smoking soon lol.

ANAL

You're such a beautiful freak, I wish there were more like you.. You're not like all the others..

I'm in my room right now and feeling sad :/ I thought I'd just leave a message to a lot of people out there that I've hurt because of my stupid actions.. so here it goes..

I'm sorry for being such a cold, heartless bitch.
I've lied,
I've cheated on boys.. one in particular that I care so much for and loved so fucking much then tried to blame it all on alcohol+drugs and the guy (Who am I kidding? I should learn to say no..), I've backstabbed my friends,
I've bitched about people who look highly of me and are nice to me,
I've done stupid things to make boys like me,
I've lied about things to turn people against someone,
I've laughed at people who trust me enough with their problems/secrets,
I've been very untrustworthy..
And to be honest, before now..
I haven't cared.
Sadly this is part of the real me and my friends deserve better, maybe I shouldn't move back to Bexhill.. less people would get hurt that way.

Confessions:

Oscar-
I'm so sorry. I've cheated on you when I promised I wouldn't.. Obviously Jorge and Matt were right about me. I'm sorry that they were. I cheated on you in the worst possible way with someone and then lied about it to you.. and you still forgave me. You were right. You were a cunt to still like me. You really do deserve someone who wont cheat on you or lie to you. I'm sorry. I love you.

Hannah-
I'm sorry for being a bad friend and not believeing you at time with your secrets and such. I'm sorry for leaving you in St Richards to go to another group.. all because I fancied a guy in it. I'm sorry for leaving you when you've always stuck by me. I'm sorry for not taking the good advice you've given me.. I should have listened. I'm sorry for fighting with you and telling you I didn't need you. I do need you. Always have, always will. You deserve better.

Nikita-
I'll admit it. I have bitched about you. Mostly at the fact that I didn't see you as much as I wanted to when I came down. I'm so sorry. You deserve a better friend then me.

Lisa-
You've been nothing but nice to me.. yet I still bitched about you. I'm sorry for being a bad friend. I wish I could take back what I said. I'm sorry.

Nathan-
You are an amazing guy. You're always so loyal to me and I honestly trust you with my life. I can't believe you still treat me so well and are still so nice to me after I've treated you like shit and said horrible things about you. I'm sorry I was a bad friend and a bad girlfriend. You're a great guy and you need to give yourself more credit for that. You also deserve better.

Parents-
I'm sorry I'm such a bad daughter. I've stolen money off you lots of times and you still forgive me. I make Jacobs life hell because in all honesty.. I truly hate him. I hate the way he's different. I hate the way he's overweight and the fact that he has Aspergers. It just makes me wish I had a normal brother and I'm sorry for that. And even through all that.. you still manage to love me. I'm sorry I take drugs, smoke and drink a lot. I'm sorry I lie to you about smoking and I'm sorry I smoke around Gracie.. putting her life at risk too. I treat you like shit yet you always forgive me. I'm sorry I'm here living instead of Joshua. I'm sure he would have been a much better child then me. He deserved to live, I don't :/ I'm so fucking sorry even though I don't show it :(

Tanya+Sabina-
I'm sorry I've believed Anthony over you at times.. I should have believed you. You've always been loyal to me and I never return that favour. I'm sorry, you can do better then me.

Anthony-
I'm sorry for what I just said. And I'm sorry for bitching about you. I wish you'd go back to how you used to be.. and I'm sorry for also saying that too.

Josh-
I'm sorry for being a bad girlfriend to you too.. I cheated on you with 5 different guys.. in both the times we dated.. I'm sorry I didn't push them away. I'm sorry for hurting you and talking about Oscar a lot when we were still kinda dating.. Sorry :(

Tim-
I'm sorry for blaming my cheating on Oscar all on you. It was both our fault. Sorry for then cheating on you with Oscar again.. It seems I can only screw up relationships.

Ailish-
I'm sorry for bitching about you so much to people. And I wish you'd hang around with Hannah more again. Hanging with those new people aren't good for you.. You've also changed and I'm sorry to say that. I still love you Ailish and I'm sorry for ever hurting you.

Sam-
I'm sorry you're such a dick. You tried to make me cheat on Oscar and when I pushed you away you went and told everyone I tried it on with you.. Thanks.

Matt-
Sorry for telling the truth and hurting you. I shouldn't have told you that stuff.. especially since it hurt Oscar too. I trusted you and you let me down, but I still can't stop being your friend because you're such a nice person.


I'm sorry to everyone I've hurt. You can hate me once you've read this and I'll understand. I just wish you wouldn't.

I'm so alone.. here on my own.. (8)

Lifes pretty screwed up at the moment lol.
I'm so god damn lonely in Cheltenham and things just seem to suck.
I've realised what a bad person I am lately and I kinda want to change.. half of me can't be asked cause I'll always have lazy Amy inside me :P But the rest of me wants to stop being so slutty and disloyal.
I WILL change! But untill then.. I shall continue living my life in sadness and continious alcohol consumption :) What big words right?


And oh, before I start blogging more.. heres a very attractive picture of one of my best mates Hannah :) I told you I'd put it on my blog :P

Lmao I love this girl!

She's always been there for me no matter what I've done :) She even offers to help me roll fags when she hates me smoking.. what a true friend :D Love you!



So anyways, I went to Spain on holiday and it was hot. Very hot. I ate pretzels and gained weight. Lifes a bitch! Or is it karma? Well that doesn't matter. What matters is I have to lose this weight! But yeah.. like I said earlier I'll change later.. too lazy right now xD

My dad got the most awesome sun burns on holiday.. because he's fat (ha) when he sits down his fat rolls over! And.. How about I stop describing and show you the pictures? Yeah, that sounds good ^.^
















And yes. My dad is a complete retard lmao.
Oh and it was my Mums 40th birthday on the 20th August.. Happy birthday her :) She hit 40 yet she really doesn't look it :D


The best songs ever:
Forever- Papa Roach
Lying is the most fun a girl can have without taking her clothes off- Panic! at The Disco (When they were actualy good..)
Your love is a lie- Simple Plan
Date Rape- Sublime
When Two Are One- Atreyu
57- Biffy Clyro


They're the best songs ever cause they're actualy the odd couple of songs that I can never get tired of listening to :)


Likes at the moment:
My new purple skinnies!
Looking like an emo :)
Cigarettes
My rats! I'm not scared to hold them again! :D
How nice my friends can be :)


Hates:
Guys who are players
Guys who are cocky
Guys who lie to you and say they'll help you when they turn someone against you
(Hannah will know who that guy is >.>)
Parents !
Cheltenham :(
Being lonely
Headaches !
Nearly running out of backy !


Oh how interesting my life is.
Anyone want a bagel?
Though I've never actualy liked bagels, I think they're quite gross tbh. They're real rubbery and they taste like.. bread.
I like pretzels though.. me and Hannah went to Chellyham town and we bought those big pretzels you get. Was the first time I had a big pretzel.. they're awesome! ^.^
And so are my new pink skinnies.


I really want a job.. but who's going to hire a moody, arrogant, little emo kid with no work experience? ...McDonalds! I don't really care about working at McDonalds.. even though it's apparently the worst job in the world.. it cant be that bad if you get free food ;)


I have such a headache.. and the rats wont stfu.. I saw them humping a while ago O_o Greaat more rat babies. Oh when are my parents going to bed? I want a cigarette.


Oh and I have another holiday quote.. guess I'll quote one per day.
You know in other countries when people advertise their bars and restaraunts by getting people to run up to you in the street and say stuff like 'Are you guys eating out tonight? You should come to this restaraunt!' yeah anyways heres what happened..
*People run up to me and my family in the street and ask us to come to their restaraunt*
Me: *After a couple of people I turn to my dad and say* It's like people are finally talking to me!! :D


Yeah.. it's funny when it happened lol..
And now um..
Bai.

As dust dances :/

Sorry I haven't been blogging a lot lately- had a lot of stuff going on :)
But anyways.. the holidays are nearly over!
After they end I think an anti booze/fag detox is in order.. but I still have like 10 days left ;)

I really can't be bothered to write that much..
Went on holiday to Spain and it was fun..
Heres some quotes from me and my family..

Dad: (Talking about my baby sisters seatbelt) Is it in yet?
Me: Yeah, I bet you hear that a lot

(In the car)
Mum: Can you hear that?! Shh! Do you hear those cricket bugs?
Me: Yeah I can hear them
Dad: But it's..
Mum: Sh! Listen!
Dad: *Turns off engine* Oh no they've gone!
*Turns engine back on* Oh! Our little friends have come back!
*Turns off engine again* Aww and now they're gone again
(It doesn't sound funny there but he rinsed the piss outta my mum LOL)
((Oh, and the car engine was crap so it made weird noises which sounded like cricket bugs.. lol))

You know what? I can't be fucked cause it's 03:01AM exactly and I'm bloody tired!
I'll write the rest tomorow!

I'll get over you, I know I will. I'll pretend my ships not sinking.. and I'll tell myself 'I'm over you!' Cause I'm the king of wishfull thinking'

Yeah, me and Oscar broke up.
Feel depressed for me :)

xx

Big Girls Don't Cry.. Usually..

Heyy :)
Well my holiday in Bexhill finished :(
Time to be depressed again !
But I'm not blogging about my depressiveness xD
Hannahs sister Carolann has a friend called Chloe (who I've never met before) who's read my blog and she thought it was so sad she actualy cried :O
If Chloe's reading this.. please don't cry! lol
I don't want people getting sad over my writing I want to make people smile!
I'm obviously not doing such a good job :P
But yeah, sorry for making you cry lol.
xXx :)

Love Buzz

Since now it’s the summer holidays I guess I’ll blog about my holidays :) I haven’t got any bloody thing else to do! Since I didn’t get any homework at my new school (woot!) I suppose this could be like, a project for me? :)

Well, the first week of my holiday was spent moping inside, doing nothing and being depressed (rule of 3; Mrs Leggatt would be proud ;) ).

The 2nd week? SO much better :) Okay, so it’s only been 2 days of the 2nd week.. but it’s already so awesome! I went back down to Bexhill as you may have known.. and so far I love it! Gawd I miss Bexhill so much.. It makes me sad to think how I never appreciated how nice the beach and the sea is.. and how great my friends are. I really did take Bexhill and it’s people for granted.

Hopefully I can be a much better friend now to my old and new friends!

So, I set off for Bexhill on Saturday and I arrived there at about 4pm. I know I said I was on the 2nd week but it’s basically the 2nd week.. lol. Anyways, the first person I met up with is one of the most important people in the world to me, Hannah Louise Fred Wilson :) She’s seriously like a bitchier, bossier and older sister to me.. even though she’s younger than me :P If she’s reading this (Which she isn’t because she bravely admitted to me she couldn’t be bothered with reading blogs :P) then I want her to know that I love her so fucking much and that I seriously couldn’t live without her! I mean, who would straighten my hair when I have really bad hair days?!

After I met with Hannah (Oh, and her boyfriend/my fuck buddy Jack was there too.. please note he’s not seriously my fuck buddy.. :P), I met up with Oscar :) Oscar is another person who I seriously would hate to live without.. he’s seriously such a great guy. He’s so perfect and he could do much better than me and why is he with me? I’ll never know either! But I won’t turn this into some emo blog about how my boyfriend would probably cheat on me and how he could get much hotter girls :P I doubt he’s also reading this too.. because I told him not to EVER read my blog again! But if he is, he should know.. STOP READING MY BLOG, and I love you so much Oscar :) I’ve never felt this way about someone before and I really don’t what I’m going to do when we’re apart again :(

Then we hung about, made out with our boyfriends, I gave Oscar a hicky (lol xD), Hannah and Jack walked home together and then me and Oscar waited for our parents to pick us up together (aha, aren’t we wild?). I met up with Hannah and Shannon the next day and we went shopping.. then later we met up with Oscar again. We went to the beach :) And fuck, are there enough foreign people?! And I’m not even joking, they ALL stared at Hannah’s tits and Shannon’s ass. I just sit there thinking, yeah nothing unusual here then. Them 2 getting checked out and me getting ignored.. but I’m used to it :P hehe.

Me and Oscar got stared at a lot.. he looks like a girl from behind because he has long hair (LOL), so everyone thought we were lesbians lmao. They kept looking round when me and Oscar were kissing, I ended up shouting ‘He’s a guy! He has a dick!’. And to prove that point, I grabbed it.. which hurt him quite a bit hehe.

More things happened and it made me even more in love with Oscar, I’m so heartbroken I’ve found a guy like him and then I had to move like 3 million miles away from him! Karmas a bitch! And now I’m sitting here while my parents are out, with a bottle of wine and loud music ;) I love Bexhill so much.. even if I did get totally burnt :P

Oh yeah, I went out today with loooads of people too hehe. To the beach.. and I lost my camera! :D And that’s why I’m burnt ;) No not the camera, the sun. Oh great the parents and twat face is back.. twat face being my fugly brother :P My holiday at Haven ends tomorrow! Yeah I stayed at Haven for like.. 3 days J It was awesome! I had a sleepover and me, Hannah and Shannon (who were sleeping over) went to the club at night. We mainly took the piss out of the people who were acting in the shows.. and then we stared at the hot bartenders.. we asked ourselves how the HELL we hadn’t seen these gorgeous guys before!

Please note, we’re extremely happy with our boyfriends and we all love them so much :)

Sorry this is turning into an essay.. wasn’t really planning on writing this much but hey, it’s something to do.

Sabina looked so beautiful today when I saw her. Sorry for sounding like a lesbian.. hehe. She has the most amazing tan, she’s really pretty and she has a great figure. I’m so jealous of her hehe.. but even with her amazing looks and such, she’s still such a nice person.. and I’m so proud of her for that :)

Holy shit.. it’s fucking raining so hard here! Where’d the sun go?! It was kinda weird actually.. Stan by Dido and Eminem came on while I was writing and then it rained! (Ironic because there’s rain noises in the song).

At the moment, I love life! Great boyfriend, great friends, great hair colour!

Well I’m sleepy and full of popcorn so I’m gonna stop writing now. If any of my friends take the time to read this then thank you for being such amazing friends and you really don’t have to read this hehe. It’s more of a boredom solver/stress relief project for me :) I love you all so much!

Give 'Em Hell, Kid -.-

I had my hair cut :)


At last hehe.. I'm sure everyone was pretty sick of the countless polls and pictures I had asking for hair advice..


But now for the moment we've all been waiting for!

My new hair!



The fat kid behind me is my brother..

Told ya he was chubby and had no life (Y)

To be honest my hair isn't that much different aha :L But oh well.. might grow it long next time and go for a scene kid hairstyle ;)

I swear I get it cut shorter and shorter everytime it gets cut.. you just wait I'll be bald the next time I get it cut aha :)


A list of things that ultimately suck:
1) Controlling Parents.. Oscars mum for example, is a total controlling bitch who needs to stop juding people.. just because you're sexually active doesn't make you a total slut..
2) Great music you've killed.. You find an amazzing song and you play it too much and then you just get so sick of the song!
3) Makeup Application (Big word ;) aha).. I got some lush new makeup and I can't even put it on properly :L
4) Parents who wont shut up.. Mum please stfu :)
5) Being Used.. Oooh we'll get revenge people.. we'll get revenge >:)


They were just some things on my mind that some people can relate to :)

I think I have door OCD! Everytime I'm in a room the door HAS to be closed! Otherwise I can't sit in it :L Oh wait.. the doors open now.. hold on!

Okay NOW I have door OCD ;) I'm gonna google it actually.. oh google <3>

Okay. So I look more like a muslim.. but you get the idea ;)

Anyone doing anything nice in the holidays? Yes, No, Maybe so? :D

I'm going to Bexhill for 2 weeks in 2 days ;) Can't waitt!! And then after I'm going on holiday to somewhere hot!

I'm permanently dying my hair black tonight :) I know it's allready black but this is a new colour! It's bluey black.. so it either shines blue or its like I dunno.. lol. Pretty :)

Anyone wanna talk? I'm so bored and I'll be nice! :D I'm a nice person! Sometimes.. ;) Hehe

Anyway, what to write.. I could write a parent lecture? Doubt anyone would read that though :P So I guess I'll just write about something random since thats more my stizyle ;) Aha.. new word! Oh I know! I'll make a list of words I've made! :D

Amy's Words© =
1) Heylo
2) Thankies
3) Okies
4) Jizzrag
5) Muchethly
6) Loveage
7) Secks Box
8) Eep

Can't think of anymore >.> Will keep you posted with them ;)

Oh, and the blog title is linked to the lectures and shit we get off parents :D

What's My Age Again?

I promised more dumb conversations so here they are ;)

My Msn Name Said: Booze/Fag/Weed Deprived :(
Then Nathan said to me: You're not fag deprived, you talk to me all the time

Nathan: Eat the damn chocolate goddamit amy or god forbit i will cover my cock in it and head rape you!
Me: Well i wont be eating the chocolate now then ;)

Finn: Oh so you're trying to get in shape for ____ then? ;)
Amy: No, actually. I'm trying to get in shape for Oscar.. and if Oscar gets boring any other person ;)
Finn: LOL
Amy: I'm joking though!

Amy (Explaining what rainbow kiss is): ..and then they makeout and like slush the cum and period around...
Maria: EW!
Amy: ..Like a smoothie! :D

Amy: im just gonna sit here, eat chocolate biscuits and laugh at himm... and cyber with u ;) So..
Hannah: Lmao
Amy: What you wearing? ;)
Hannah: well if yuu must know im wearning those see through angel thongs and a yellow bra and sitting like that in my bedroom cuz its so bloody hot nd its bout to get hotter ;)
Amy: Ahh ;) and i wanna rip them off you with my teeth.. and then.. chain you to the bed.. and then.. make you eat a banana and..
Hannah: lol..wtf?
Amy: *slaps you* EAT IT BITCH... I dunno. LOL
Hannah: Hmmm.... kinky cyber sex.. love it ;) Lmao Say my name bitch say it!
Amy: ... OSCAR!... Oh shit. I mean.. uh.. Hannah!
Hannah: OMG AMY!! :O Oscar?! Whos Oscar?!
Amy: Uh..
Hannah: hmm amy who is he? who is he? yuu tld me i was the onli one :(
Amy: You are babes :( He's just my bit on the side.. it's not you.. it's me! <3?
Hannah: yuu said yuu loved me and tht i was the best yu'd ever had and tht i satisfied yuu :( wt happened?
Amy: I swear our conversations are getting weirder and weirder everyday : lmao

Hannah (Said this to her bf on msn thinking it was him): Im nt in love i just wanna be touched
(Person she thought was her bf): Its sam and jak aint imprerssed u wanna be touched by me lol
Amy: 2 for 1? xD

I'd write more but Naths being a fag and saying he wants to read it but he's getting his hair dyed soon :P

More to come ;)

And yeah, me and my friends talk about sex wayy too much :P

For all the dirty looks, the photographs your boyfriend took...

I think I'm due a blog now, so here it goes (Y)...

Oh wait. More things you should know:

1) I am actualy addicted to Nutella :/ I bought another jar and ate half in a night :O Lmao

2) Arghh I just wan't to be different.. I need a new hairstyle and a new look (Y)

3) I got my nose pierced again.. 3rd time lucky? :D

4) I think I talk about myself to my friends wayyy too much :S Sorry guys!

5) I've decided to show the world my face.. without makeup! Time to show whats behind the protective goop ^.^

And here is the no makeup picture...

Yuck. Shan't be taking another one of those photos again but I'm gradually becoming less fake and more clean :)

So with the lack of alcohol, fags and makeup.. I'm cleaner! :D

I just want to eat healthier now and all will be well.. apart from the fact I'm missing Bexhill and its people like crazzzyy. And when I say people I mean my friends and Oscar.. mainly Nikita, Sabina, Tanya, Tom and Anthony (Y)

But of course I love the rest of you ;)

Strange blog title but relevant (Y) Shan't explain much more about that :)

Its only 5 days now till I see my friends again in Bexhill.. can't wait! I get to uncleanify my body again with booze and fags and weed! lmao. Meh, I'll be healthy another time :P Seize the day and what not.

Anyways... Youtube ;) I'm thinking of making an account and like, reading my blogs out or whatever instead of typing it.. would make it easier/funner :) I doubt I'd have the guts/non-laziness to do that though. My blogs aren't very interesting for people to read anyways, it's more stress relief :)

I found my twin today :O There I was looking through google at emo hair styles when this girl pops up on the screen... and she looks a lot like me :O I put her as my dp on msn and people actualy thought she was me.. greeat they forgot what I look like already? :P Or does she really look that much like me? Well here she is anyways..

If you've seen other pictures of me you would notice how alike we look.. I'd add another pic of me but I'm far too lazy and since it's 1:20am in the morning I'm quite tired :)

I've been in a really I-Wanna-Do-Something-Really-Stupid mood lately.. not like harmful stupid! Like.. Jackass stupid ;)

URGH This nose stud is getting on my nerves allready. It's like I've got a twig up my nose.. I mean wtf! It itches and it hurts! But it looks awesome ;) I hope :O

So... I put up furniture today.. :D Yeah my life sucks LOL.

Arghh what am I going to look forward to once I've been to Bexhill? Seriously. Life is so boring :/ I feel a depressing mood coming on.. I think I'll go eat a cookie. But no. We have no cookies and if we did there would still be none left cause my fugly brother would have eaten them all. He's actualy so fat (Y)

Ah ha I took a picture of him see...

What a lard ass.

;)

Night night people! :D Sleep well and... tip your waitress? O_o

Yeah.. that'll do...

<3?

Just So You Know (Y)

I'll start this post with a random list of things I've learnt this month :)

1) It's nice to see your boyfriend be jealous of you talking to another guy, but it's not nice getting jealous over him talking to another girl :(
2) There is a serious difference between love and lust.
3) I'm bloody addicted to grapes! I've eaten 3 whole packets so far this week -.- I have a problem.. lol
4) I've learnt to think before I say/type :) And wow it's weird! lol Better... but weird.
5) You have to do things you hate for people sometimes to show them that you really love them :)
6) Papa Roach actualy made an album that has nearly all decent songs :) (Paramour Sessions.. check it out ;) )
7) I can actualy get bored of The Sims 2..
8) My friends and Oscar are the only people to keep me sane in this town.
9) To be more trustworthy :)
10) To stop expecting so much from people.

I know that list wasn't as exciting as you would have wanted it to be, but I guess I don't learn much exciting stuff :P
I don't learn much really, well from school I suppose I do, but life lessons? Nah.

Right now I'm eating Nutella.. (Chocolate spread) And the whole 400g tub has 2060 calories in it! WTF, why does such bad food have to taste so good? This is god punishing us for Adam and Eve eating fruit in Genesis..

Yeah that didn't make sense at all lol. And I don't believe in religion which makes it even weirder O_o And if they ate fruit and God wanted to punish them, then why make other food worse to eat? He should have made fruit like really fatty or poisonus or something.. why wreck all the other food? Asshat.

But anyways I've eaten about 1/4 of the tub of Nutella today which is 530 Calories.. oh shit lol. I'm gonna start going to the gym I think. Then I can at least eat all the junk I want and burn some of it off :)

My dog got fixed yesterday! (Y) Poor thing lmao. All he does since is whine and moan and try and lick his balls. But he has a cone on his head so he cant.. I actualy lmao'd when I saw him.. I shouted 'CONE HEAD LOL' and then got told off cause it upsets the dog..

Yeah he'll get over it xD

So today, I decided to try wearing a thong...
LOL
To be honest it's actualy not that bad (Y) You don't really notice it and it's not as bad as it sounds :) I'd wear them again but I much prefer girl boxers and hawt pants :)

I should be a reviewer in my spare time hehe.. I have a lot of spare time now :/ I'm just wondering if I'm going to actualy do those diets I talked about in my other post.. hehe We'll have to wait and see :)

Well I suppose that's all for now. Cept please can you all be a dear and do this blog :)
I really want to know if I should have my hair done like that... But really, what's the point? No ones gonna see it... :/ Never really thought of that before.. But heres the link anyway.

http://www.bebo.com/PollView.jsp?MemberId=122710598&PollId=7449888225

Issues

Well that was a pretty fucked up week.

Too many arguments and too much boredom >.>

But lets hope this week will be better :)

((And Happy Week Anniversery to me and Oscar for yesterday (: ))

Now, on to the blog...

I have a 7 week holiday and it started today. I am so bloody bored already wtf am I going to do? I'll probably just stay in and eat and go on msn and be depressed. You just wait, I'm gonna get fatter and fatter untill I can't even get out the house.. I'd actualy laugh if that happened though.. well actualy I don't think I would but thinking about it now its funny :P

Just 12 more days till I come and visit Bexhill, I never thought I'd actualy move. I hate this town it fucking sucks. Theres so many emos and skater and people who have lots in common with me but I'd rather be with all the chavs in Bexhill! Least I'd have my old mates there.

On to happier topics now :) I'm gonna get my eyebrows plucked soon! You'd laugh if you saw both of them at the same time. I plucked them but then I got lazy so I did a crap job and now they both don't match... but I just thought fuck it and left it because I have a side fringe so you only see one :P So when I come down.. people please don't lift up my fringe ! I'll look like a total asshat (I love that word :P)

Well guess what the weather was like today? :D

Raining! Wow, you don't need to be psychic to guess that. It always bloody rains here! I used to love the rain but now it's just boring and I miss the sun :( I liked the way it also used to make my ginger hair glow ^.^ But now my hairs black.. I'm getting pretty bored of the colour actualy.. I might dye it chocolate brown next. I love that colour :)

I wanted to get my lip pierced over the summer holiday but my dads being a twat and saying I'm only allowed to get it done when I'm 18... FUCK THAT. Last year he said 16 anyways! He's actualy such a twat. I'm getting my nose repierced though (Y) And when I move back to Bexhill when I'm 16 I'll get my lip pierced then :P If my dad says I'm allowed a tattoo when I'm 16 then why wont he let me get my lip pierced you ask? Well, It's because HE thinks they're gross.. what an asshat.

Anyways I might have my hair cut short...er.

Heres the pic, please tell me what you think I'll add a picture of me too so you can compare :)

Because Days Come And Go...

Don't really know what to write about really. Usually I'm full of ideas but today I'm stuck :O Havent wrote anything in a couple of days- too lazy really :P Now on to the blog!...

My Current Obsessions:
1) Flavoured Water (I drink like, a big bottle a day :O)
2) Oscar (Of course ;) )
3) Lead Sails (And A Paper Anchor)- Atreyu
4) When Two Are One- Atreyu
5) Your Love Is A Lie- Simple Plan
6) Save It For The Bedroom- You Me At 6
7) The Word 'Jizzrag' ;)
8) Writing (Even though I can't be asked to do it most of the time hehe..)
9) Atreyu
10) Baking (That's right! Amy can cook! But yeah, I burnt quite a lot of stuff :/)
11) Flowers!<3

What an interesting list, if you are reading this you have no life.. like me! Wow we have something in common (Y)

Right now I'm watching The Grudge and Jacob won't shut his fat obese hench (In a fat way) overweight flabby ugly mouth!! Yeah, he's fat. This is some of the stuff he's eaten today: 6 Jaffacakes, 3 Cookies, Chocolate Milkshake, Dinner (He has an adult portion.. I don't even have that ffs!), 4 Rice crispie cakes, 3 Other biscuits and more. He's so fucking fat! And oh my god, it annoys me how FAT his ass is! And he sticks it out when hes on the computer (which he's on ALL day). I'm gonna take a photo of him sitting like that and put it on here so you see what I mean!

So I start my holidays tomorow. I didn't go to school today or yesterday because I was too lazy.. I don't mind school but I HATE the rain here. It rains EVERYday loads, its making my hair frizzy and It's pissing me off! Is there like something that'll make your hair stay straight ffs! :

Love!
'The word love has many different meanings in English, from something that gives a little pleasure ("I loved that meal") to something one would die for (ideals, family). It can describe an intense feeling of affection, an emotion or an emotional state. ...'
Well, would I die for Oscar? Thats the question ;)
Well personally I don't think that means anything because I would die for another person (Y) Or maybe I'm just not afraid to die :/ Emo much?

Why do Japanese people always have awesome hair? Seriously! I'm watching The Grudge like I said earlier, and EVERYONE has good hair! It's not fair :O I think I could look Japanese, I'd get like a Japanese skin coloured spray tan, put fuck loads of eyeliner and tah dah! I already have black hair too :P Maybe I'll do that for like a costume party hehe (Y)

Gawd now my mums obsessed with flowers, she's got like 3 vases of flowers in here, she put 2 in my room, 1 in the bathroom (Like, wtf!), 1 in the livingroom, 1 in her bedroom and she's probably put one in the bloody conservatory. Psycho mum, much!

Oscar is hott <3

The End...for now!

Starting Over...

So I just had my first day of school at Teweskebery.
Oh my fucking god, it's like Bexhill High!
Not to be a reviewer but I noted some things down :) :
!) You're allowed to wear as much makeup as you want and whatever colours, so you could wear bright green eyeshadow if you wanted :O
!) You rarely get homework- and if you do no one ever does it..
!) You don't have journals..
!) You're allowed as many pirecings as you want + you're allowed to wear face piercings..
!) People rarely do the class work
!) You're allowed to listen to your mp3s in class! People ask the permission of the teacher though
!) People use phones in class
!) People wear trainers, lots and lots of jewlery and accesories and own clothes over/under their uniform.
!) Students swear in front of/at the teachers and don't get in trouble and are allowed to..
!) People eat in class..
!) You're allowed to dye your hair any colours that aren't really that bold like pink.. and you're allowed highlights and your hair down.
!) Boys are allowed long hair
!) You can wear skinny pants (<3!)
!) You're allowed chewing gum
!) No community service :P
!) Teachers don't show up to lessons and you end up changing classs rooms and doing 'work' with year 8's...
!) Teachers DEFINATLY can't control their classes...
!) Only punishment is to sit somewhere else no matter how bad the students been..
!) Some of the teachers are fucking pervs! My science teacher stares at all the girls tits so obviously! :O They call him titty-watcher lmao
!) You don't learn ANYTHING
!) Teachers don't care if you do/don't do work.

Heaven much? Lmao.
I met a group of people, they seem really nice. Theres Kerry, Gage, Ashley, Louise, Emily, Katie, Toby... Can't remember the rest lmao.
I tried :P

Oh my god, everyone in this city is emo/rocker/skater. I'm not even joking. Theres no room in this town to be individual!
I miss being stared at and laughed at for my tacky outfits :(

Mr Campbell said this was a good school... wtf? Lmao. My new head of years nice though :) And I have to take 2 buses and walk some to my new fucking house >.> Everyone has like a northern accent. Everyone says bath and grass etc like me and EVERYONE isn't a virgin and smokes weed/gets drunk a lot.

I've been invited to a piss up concert I may go :) What else have I got to do?
I swear I'm gonna get a bad future in this schoool... oh well you only need like, English to be a writer don't you?

Something tells me I'm gonna have a lot more fun and a lot less education here... and I'm so taking advantage of it. Serves my parents right for moving me :P
This is so payback! <3

Seems like I'm not gonna piss ups after all! :D Oh sweet alcohol... lol. Guess how many lessons of R.E I have every week? 1 :P Fucking 1!! I'm in heaven! <3

Theres hardly much hot guys here but theres loads of emo guys :O Heaven much? I was warned about guys that would definitaly go for me because I was new and such, my new friends told me how they were such jerks and I shouldn't fall for them. Well I have Oscar so I don't have to worry about that :P <3

I have quite a nice looking guy in my form called Joe.. I like his voice and he has insanely large hairstyles.. lol. I really miss my friends and Oscar though :/ Me and Oscar just started dating yesterday but I can't help but think he'll get bored of me/cheat on me! :( I wish I still lived in Bexhill.. :(

Anyways.. heres my number of lessons per week!:
'Pers Devel'= 1
Science= 6
Maths= 4
Free= 3
Food= 3
P.E= 2
German= 3
Media= 3
English= 4
R.E= 1!


I can hear someone recieving behaviour problem help here behind a big screen.. cause a big screens gonna make all the bloody difference! The dudes name is Curtis and from what I hear he has ginger hair (A lot of people have ginger hair here...). He has a phobia of girls? LMAO. I just kept screaming HOMO in my head the whole time lol.

I bit all my nails down :/ They had loads of stains on them so I decided to bite them off! Plus I was hungry and it helped the craving! So many skaters/emo's... It's like the perfect school for me. Everyone has the same interests as me! :D

Wow this Curtis guy is comepletly in love with his best friend! And the woman patrionises the shit outta this kid! She over reacts so fakely to small things: Curtis- 'Yeah, my mum accidently ate her bday chocolate present'. Woman- '*GASP!* :O Oh my word! That's naughty! I can't believe that... oh dear!'

Oh shut up you silly cunt. Lmao.

Oscar is hot :) lol Sorry yet another Oscar talk :P He's soo self conscious it's sweet! He thinks he'd ugly and hides his face in his hair! To be honest, I think he's very good looking and perfect the way he is! :) I'm so happy and lucky to have him! ^.^ And now I can now actualy say I've had a boyfriend that's hot ;)

Yeah. I Can Pull.
LOL