I'm Falling to Pieces

It's ironic how when you're lonely, the entire world seems to be in love.

After breaking up with George (For the second time :/) I'm actualy really lonely again. So is a number of other people I've been talking to, but the one thing they said helps is music.

I agree with that, music does make you feel a lot better but sometimes it just makes the situation a lot worse. Like, if you listen to depressing music 8 out of 10 times you're going to end up even more depressed.

I don't get life, theres really no point. I guess we're just made to make babies and fight over land. I hate that money was invented, I get the point of it and I suppose the system sort of works.. in a twisted way.. but I just hate it. Why can't everything be fair? :(



Well anyway, on to love. Although I'm only 15 I really think I have experienced love. And it's horrible. I suppose I've only discovered the bad not-being-loved-back love though.



George said he loved me. I hate it when you find the perfect guy who genuinly loves you and wants to be with you forever, and you just dont feel the same way anymore. I have no idea whats wrong with me. It's like the only way I love them is if they refuse to love me. Why are girls like this? We're incapable of taking our eyes off the ones that wont love, and ignore the ones that are willing to love.



I'd love to meet my soul mate.. I honestly believe that there is someone for everyone out there who we were meant to be with.. like an other half. I like the idea of that, it's sweet. I'm only 15 but I'm already tired of trying to win other boys affections when they clearly don't want me. I'd love to meet my soul mate now. Though, then I'd have nothing to look for and be happy with when I'm older. Life is going to be so boring and I'm terrified of growing up :( I could party all my life and stay with my friends.. that would make me very happy. But then.. what else? There has to be more to life then just babies, money and friends.



Teenage emotions suck. Thank god we only have to go through this for like, 10 years. The only thing left after this to look forward to is a midlife crisis. That'll be fine though, I'll just buy a sports car or get a tattoo or something.